Monday, September 8th, 2008
by Deklun
I’m in Hawaii, and the glow of the sun makes it hard to see my laptop screen… so I haven’t been writing much here. I’ve been doing a lot of reflection as I’ve been out of touch with technology in Kailua-Kona, and I’m excited to get back in town and get back to work on my new cd. It’s good every once in a while to take a break from what is familiar, and put yourself in something that is not. The radio stations in Hawaii make my ears bleed, and I’ve found only one bar that has good music, which is The Mixx… Hawaii is a unique experience, and it’s definitely a breath of fresh air for the soul.
So, by the time I get back I will be jones’n to make music, and I will proudly overdose on my socially acceptable addiction… so keep listening.
Monday, March 6th, 2006
by Deklun
I’ve been thinking about this question for a while. You could actually ask this question about a lot of mediums…. theatre, film, art… Why does a musician create. Why does U2 make music? Coldplay? Dan Bern? It has made me wonder for a while why people “really” make their music. Do they understand the market and know what to make so it will sell. Are they careless about money, but careful about expression? I wonder, being a band like U2, what have their intentions been? I’ve struggled with direction in music, do I write so as to be a job, or do I write because I want to. As of late, I’ve been writing like I’ve been pooping. Everyone poops, you have to, or you die. I’ll write when I need to, and hold out for a while. Then I get all cramped up, and just explode everywhere, and make some awesome shit, (pun completely intended). Did Van Gogh paint to be famous? Does someone’s best work come when they rip open their sternum and dump everything onto the page. I’m coming to believe that. I think once an artist becomes familiar with their medium, they can communicate where words fall short. What is the purpose of creativity in general? Music, film, and art are the forms that I enjoy the most. I just spent the whole weekend watching season 1 of the T.V. series “Lost”, about 16 hours of footage….and it kicked ass. For 2 weeks I’ve only been listening to Quim’s latest cd. Most of us find someone’s work and just get addicted to it. That addiction comes and goes, but the essence of what happens is so amazing. I know it’s hard to compare mediums, but once you get down to the content, you can find what you are looking for. I love science fiction movies, I hate music with words as the focal point. I love Leonard Nierman. There are people that hate what I love. There are people that think my music is crap. I’ve been afraid to write for a long time because i’m afraid of what people think. I’ve come to the realization that what they think doesn’t matter, because I’m writing for myself. I’ve noticed that when I’m trying to write for any other reason than just to create, my music is flawed. When I write to try and make music that is cool like other stuff I’ve heard, my music is flawed. I keep wondering if when I’m old, am I going to look back on myself and reflect positively about my life? I’ve been finding that the answer to that lies in my intentions. If I write to gain money, I will fail. If I write to gain popularity I will fail. I have to write to loose myself in my music. I have to “give” to my music. I have to separate my confidence from others opinions. It doesn’t matter if my music is good, but if it is good to me. I make music, because words fall short. I’ve grown as a musician, and any talent that has been given to me, I must use, and not waste. We are given gifts that we do not deserve, and we are also given a choice. Do I choose to use my gifts, and use them untill my last breathe of life? We must create ourselves onto our mediums. Our gifts allow us to do that. We must make sure our intentions are clear. I must pour myself into my music with no hesitation, but with complete commitment. Time will tell if I succeed.
